In my first post on this blog I announced that we were pregnant. But in that announcement I had written about the picture the Lord had given me. It was a rainbow and while I didn't see one in the physical, the spiritual significance was great. Al and I have a silly picture that I drew of a rainbow on our bathroom mirror. Over it we have written, Hebrews 10:23. In the cloud of it I wrote, Jeremiah 1:5. Over the past months we have clung to that reminder that our baby is the rainbow, a covenant that God has made that He does keep His promises.
Yesterday I was on the phone with my sister-in-law, Angela. She said there was a rainbow in the sky and it seemed so random because the skies were clear, there was no rain, just sunny blue skies. This morning she sent me this email:
I just wanted you to know that the rainbow I saw last night was yours!! I knew that when I saw it while on the phone with you but it was confirmed to by Christy. She is my so to speak “prayer partner.” We share each others burdens & blessings so as soon as I hung up with you I called her but she didn’t answer so I brushed it off. She called me back 30 minutes later & I told her that it was so cool that I saw a rainbow when I was talking with you on the phone. (she read your blog) She said “What time?!” I told her around 5:30-35. she said “oh my goodness Ang, I was driving down 151st toward 75 & looked up & saw the exact same rainbow & immediately thought of Martha & Al & prayed for them & thanked God for His promises for their baby!” I just wanted to remind you that God is faithful to His promises!
I forwarded the email to my sister Becky and she replied back that she had also seen the rainbow! God is so incredible. **Edited** My Dad saw the rainbow too
Today I go to the doctor to talk about our options for fertility. I am clinging to the covenant that God has made. We have a baby and he is coming.
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Monday, October 20, 2008
Well I haven't posted in ages, but this week I have had a couple of different people ask me to update so here we go... This of course is nowhere near everything, but one thing is true no matter what I type or what I leave out, God has been in all of this. We are healing and while there are times it is hard for both Al and me to see pregnant women or babies and wonder why in the world it is not us, we do not feel forgotten. The Lord has been so faithful to speak to us during this time of waiting and learning. I feel like we have done lots of both. Sometimes I wonder why God didn't just ask me to read a really long book to learn all of this, but instead He has asked us to walk it all out. =) When we lost our "March" baby in May I heard the Lord say, there's another chapter. It was so not what I wanted to hear at that moment. I wanted my happy ending right then, but I know that is not how it works. If God has more refining to do in us, let it be. He knows what is best and we am submitted to that plan.
We are surrounded by family and friends who are committed to hold fast with us. Our hope is in the Lord and so we trust Him for His perfect plan. Up until about a month ago I had not felt that we were supposed to pursue any fertility testing outside of what we had done, but after lots of prayer and counsel we have determined to go forward with that. Not sure what it looks like yet, but I have a doctor's appointment coming up where we will discuss our options. I am still sorta in the dark as to what that will be, but I am ready to be educated and go forward.
This journey has not always been easy, it has not been without lots and lots of tears, but it has grown us. Our marriage is stronger, our faith is bigger and our relationship with the Lord is better than it has ever been. I know He has more for us, so we will continue to press into Him for that. If I tried to list every word He has spoken through His word, through the church, friends or in our prayer time, it would take me ages, but the main thing is, the Lord has promised us a baby, we feel that this first baby is to come from my womb, the Lord has told us we will have a boy and God has spoken the name Jeremiah to us for that boy.
The verses that I am meditating on today are, Isaiah 49:14-16
14 Yet Jerusalem says, “The Lord has deserted us;
the Lord has forgotten us.”
15 “Never! Can a mother forget her nursing child?
Can she feel no love for the child she has borne?
But even if that were possible,
I would not forget you!
16 See, I have written your name on the palms of my hands.
Always in my mind is a picture of Jerusalem’s walls in ruins.
The Lord reminded me of this verse yesterday during worship. My name, Al's name and Jeremiah's name are all written on His hand. Jesus is interceding on our behalf and it doesn't get any better than that.
Thank you for all your prayers and love, I can't wait for the day to have our promise fulfilled and for each of you to meet him. Want to know more specifics on our story or the words spoken to us? Just ask me, I love sharing our testimony.
We are surrounded by family and friends who are committed to hold fast with us. Our hope is in the Lord and so we trust Him for His perfect plan. Up until about a month ago I had not felt that we were supposed to pursue any fertility testing outside of what we had done, but after lots of prayer and counsel we have determined to go forward with that. Not sure what it looks like yet, but I have a doctor's appointment coming up where we will discuss our options. I am still sorta in the dark as to what that will be, but I am ready to be educated and go forward.
This journey has not always been easy, it has not been without lots and lots of tears, but it has grown us. Our marriage is stronger, our faith is bigger and our relationship with the Lord is better than it has ever been. I know He has more for us, so we will continue to press into Him for that. If I tried to list every word He has spoken through His word, through the church, friends or in our prayer time, it would take me ages, but the main thing is, the Lord has promised us a baby, we feel that this first baby is to come from my womb, the Lord has told us we will have a boy and God has spoken the name Jeremiah to us for that boy.
The verses that I am meditating on today are, Isaiah 49:14-16
14 Yet Jerusalem says, “The Lord has deserted us;
the Lord has forgotten us.”
15 “Never! Can a mother forget her nursing child?
Can she feel no love for the child she has borne?
But even if that were possible,
I would not forget you!
16 See, I have written your name on the palms of my hands.
Always in my mind is a picture of Jerusalem’s walls in ruins.
The Lord reminded me of this verse yesterday during worship. My name, Al's name and Jeremiah's name are all written on His hand. Jesus is interceding on our behalf and it doesn't get any better than that.
Thank you for all your prayers and love, I can't wait for the day to have our promise fulfilled and for each of you to meet him. Want to know more specifics on our story or the words spoken to us? Just ask me, I love sharing our testimony.
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